if i had a box of wishes

i would wish for many things.

i would wish that i knew what i was doing more often than i feel completely lost.

i would wish that my victories outnumbered my mistakes.

i would wish that i could conquer loneliness and thwart melancholy upon arrival.

i would wish that my courage might shout down my doubt.

i would wish that i had a thicker skin, a stronger resolve and a higher tear threshold.

i would wish that my life came with an instruction manual, preferably detailed and illustrated, with an extensive section full of troubleshooting tips and an automatic lifetime upgrade covering all subsequent editions.

i would wish that i was able to understand myself better.

i would wish that my understanding would come with a sense of peace.

if i had a box of wishes.

i would wish for many things.

oh, who am i kidding?

i would probably just wish for love.

and then gently put the box away.