this entry doesn't count towards the 40!

but i wanted to offer a quick update because it's been three days since my last posting... and i know i've kind of left a cliffhanger hanging.

the weekend was filled with story-finishing, laundry-folding and tax-doing, and i spent much of it in the 'burbs. ever since my parents wound up with malware (which has since been turfed) on their PC and my mom's email was hacked a couple of months ago, i've been hesitant to use their computer to log into anything that requires i cough up a password. blogger included. so, i was mostly offline.

anyway...

i have spent many, many hours over these past three days -- between CPP calculations and adding fabric softener and waxing poetic about what makes actors decide to try singing -- pondering my future. what i will do. where i will live. what i want to do. where i want to live. it's all been kind of churn-y and weird. at times, exciting and hopeful. other times, terrifying and filled with gut-punching doubts.

on saturday night, YB and i treated ourselves to ricotta gnocchi in fresh tomato-basil sauce, which was fabulous, and two designer brownies -- hers, a coffee/toffee things; mine, a salted-caramel delight that i heated in the microwave and then ate with fresh vanilla ice cream. ohsoverygood.

then i browsed real-estate listings.

and felt panicky.

and thought about my big windows and beautiful view and felt sad.

then, after putting on my pyjamas, i watched Celebrity Apprentice with mom for three hours and had a nice evening.

and, though i'd hoped to have this week off, it looks like i may have to go back into the office.