the photo blog...

... is up and running again. :-)

i need to find my battery charger...

... because i need to charge a bunch of batteries for my point-and-shoot camera.

because i think i'm going to revive the 365 photo blog.

this concludes today's news.

also, it is raining and very humid.

and Big Brother starts tonight.

fin.

cupcakes and tears

it was a somewhat blue birthday. after having had a couple of good-birthday years, i found myself revisiting old territory today -- just feeling down, and forgotten.

it's my own fault. i had, against my better judgment and despite a wealth of experience that you'd think would have taught me otherwise, built up expectations for the day.

and, of course, what i hoped/expected would happen... didn't. as a result, i felt sad and disappointed most of the day. it's a lesson i seem incapable of learning and retaining: better to expect nothing and to be pleasantly surprised if you get something, than to hope for something and feel disappointed when you get nothing.

many people asked me what i'd be doing tonight, after work, to celebrate. "going home?" was my answer. i had no plans. despite many people saying they hoped i'd have an amazing day, i received not a single offer or invite to do anything or go anywhere or celebrate in any way. and planning my own celebration just feels/felt a little pathetic. same goes for taking myself out for a birthday dinner: too depressing.

so, a friend of mine (who did a lot to celebrate me today) drove me home after work and i gave her a tour of the condo (my unit and the building). then i walked to the grocery store and bought myself some sandwich fixins. mom called to see how my day was, so we chatted for a bit. and now i'm getting ready to shower and change for bed.

i will kick myself if i start crying as i try to fall asleep.

feh. i thought i was past things like this but, evidently, not so much. here's to a brighter tomorrow!

pre-birthday brief

* i have been feeling unusually blue and melancholy of late. i blame a number of things: the impending end of my job (the mat-leave coverage ends on july 7th), almost three weeks of poor sleep (averaging about five hours a night) and my upcoming birthday (which is always a time of reflection and introspection). i've felt near tears many days, and actually started crying while seeing my chiropractor a week and a half ago. i hate feeling like this, and it's part of the reason i haven't blogged in weeks.

* the condo continues to inch along. i still feel like i've got an epic to-do list, and that i'm chipping away SOOOOO slowly at an enormous mountain of stuff that needs to be fixed, replaced, painted, purchased or found.

* living here has been fine, save for the condo corporation's seeming inability to correctly withdraw the monthly maintenance fees from my bank account. first, they double-billed me for april, then didn't withdraw them at all for june. i actually called the office to point out the error, and to say it's doesn't really instil in me much confidence in their accounting department. they apologized profusely, but if things continue to be mishandled, i'll revert to post-dated cheques. otherwise, i love the neighbourhood, and i love my walks home at the end of the work day -- so peaceful.

* i've been called for jury duty. again. it's not until late july, so i'm hoping that the lazy, hazy days of summer mean fewer trials and a reduced need for jury members. (if you recall, i was previously called previously called in the fall of 2007.)

* the above photo is the view of the bedrooms from my foyer, in evening light. there are more colours to come in more rooms (i'm considering orange highlights in the kitchen), but this view makes me happy. :-)